Archive | May 2007

He gives and He takes away

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth



Does it ever perturb you at how easy it is to sin? Lately I haven’t been able to stop. It angers me at how weak and feeble a Christian I am. And the question just pops to your head, “why did I do it?”

The Devil is so smart, and he knows you very well. He knows where you’re weak, and he knows where you’re strong. Does that scare you? Well, it should a little bit. He’s planed out your day, he’s planned where to take you, what you’ll see etc.

However, there is one person I’m forgetting all about – GOD. God has also planned your day out and unlike the Devil – God’s plan will DEFINATELY go ahead. As I’ve said, we should feel a bit of fear knowing the power the devil has – but that shouldn’t cause a trauma. We have someone who controls everything, who’s plans never fails, who knows you better than the devil. He is the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. He is all-powerful, all-knowing, mighty God. We should cling to him and the cross for our salvation.

“Easier said than done” you say, and yes, I agree. This is where I struggle most. Please don’t think of me as been-there-done-that person, I’m a been-there-and-still-there person, I’m still struggling and I probably find it as hard as you, maybe even harder. “For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want” (Galatians 5:17)Even Paul found himself in the middle of sin;

“We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.”
(Romans 7:14-20)

But as I’ve said before, this is where the power of God’s family and grace comes in. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Let me say it again, I don’t think you quite understood me, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. (I’m using lots of Caps today!). “We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check.” James 3:2

Plenty of Christians struggle with lust (be it hetero- or homosexual), gambling, anger, worrying, hate, whatever. As a Christian you are in God’s family. We shouldn’t shy away from these facts, keep them hush-hush. That’s what Satan wants – but we don’t want what Satan wants, we want to God wants.

There are loads of great resources at your aid. First an foremost – God should be your number 1 call. No one else. First, you should cry out to God for help. Don’t talk to anyone else. Just to God. God hates seeing us going to someone else for help before Him – even our pastor! God will the guide you the rest of the way.

There are plenty of websites in the sidebar for you to look at but book wise:

The Bible (cf. Romans 7)
Sex is not the Problem (lust is) by Joshua Harris
The Cross Centered Life by C J Mahaney
The Enemy Within by Kris Lundgard
A Fight to the Death by Wayne A. Mack

Also, I find biographies the greatest help. Find a biography which would apply to your problem. If you can’t find any, leave a comment or send me an email and I’ll do my best ot find some for you.

Sorry, kinda went off on a tangent there!

Nos Da.


The Story of Ray Charles Robinson

I don’t usually cry in films but I did in this one. “Ray” (the name of the film) came out in 2004 and it was on ITV last night, so I thought hey, what the heck – I’m only revising for my Alevels.
It was so sad. Films with to much personal death and loneliness really kick me off. His brother drowned when he [Ray] was 6 (I think) and then he started to lose his sight. By the age of 7 he was totally blind.

Following his success he gets into drugs and his life starts going down the drain. But I won’t tell you what happens then cos it’d spoil it for you.
If you can, watch it. It’s an awesome but sad film.


Here are some Welsh idioms that I have to learn by next Monday :D!

  • ar ben – on top of
  • arllwys y glaw – pouring rain
  • ar y blaen – in the lead / ahead
  • heb flewyn ar dafod – bluntly, without mincing words
  • bob amser – always
  • wrth ei fodd – in his element
  • bwrw’r Sul – to spend the weekend
  • unwaith ac am byth – once and for all
  • ar gael – available
  • cael dau ben llinyn ynghyd – to make ends meet
  • cael ei weld – to be seen
  • cymryd at – to take to
  • cyn bo hir – before lone
  • mae’n dda ganddo fe – he is pleased
  • dal ati – to persevere
  • nesa peth i ddim – next to nothing
  • ar bigau’r drain – on tenterhooks
  • o ddrwg i waeth – from bad to worse
  • mynd i’r afael â – to get to grips with
  • gair am air – word for word
  • gwneud ei orau glas – to do his level best
  • o’r golwg – out of sight
  • gorau po gynta – the sooner the better
  • gwell hwyr na hwyrach – better late than never
  • a’i wynt yn ei ddwrn – out of breath
  • ddim hanner call – not all there!
  • mae hiraeth arno – he longs for
  • lladd amser – to kill time
  • llaesu dwylo – to make less effort, to slack
  • ail law – second-hand
  • man a man – might as well
  • yn awr ac yn y man – now and again
  • pwyso a mesur – to consider carefully, weigh up
  • mae hi’n wedi canu arna i – I’m done for
  • celwydd golau – a white lie, an obvious lie
  • uchel ei gloch – making a lot of noise, boastful
  • gwenu o glust i glust – smiling from ear to ear
  • codi bwganod – raise difficulties
  • dysgu ar gof – rote-learning
  • ar ei golled – to lose out
  • fel y graig – like a rock
  • crynu yn ei sqidiau – shaking in his boots
  • ar bob cyfrif – by all means, on every account
  • ar gyfyl y lle – near the place
  • dro ar ôl tro – time after time
  • gwneud y tro – to make do, to be suitable
  • uwchben ei ddigon – very well off
  • wyneb i waered – upside down, face downwards
  • yma ac acw – here and there
  • yn sgil – in the wake of
  • celwydd noeth – bare-faced lie
  • codi ofn ar – to frighten
  • ar ben ei gilydd – on top of each other
  • ar ei ben ei hun – on his own
  • mae hi ar ben – it’s all over
  • hen bryd – high time
  • rhag ofn – lest, for fear
  • rhoi’r gorau i – to give up
  • dal ei dafod – to hold his tongue, keep quite
  • o dipyn i beth – bit by bit
  • dweud y drefn wrth – to tell off, lay down the law

Lot’s, lots, lots.

Better get revising then…

Eurovision Song Contest 2007

Oh dear, it’s that time of year again. False voting and hair-pulling cringiness.

The Winner
– Serbia

The Best
– Hungary
The Weird

– Ukraine

The Losers
– UK and Ireland! Woohoo!

It was an OK night, there have been better years. What a waste of life. *YAWN* off to bed.

This year the UK were appalling, it was really crude and disguisting. Shame on us! I can’t believe we allowed these people to represent us. They should all be shot. Even tho Ireland lost totally, at least they were respectable. The UK had gay stewards and everything. Ach a fi!
Hungary was amazing tho. They deserved it. 100%.
Participant: Magdi RÚZSA
Song: Unsubstantial Blues

Now I’m 17.

I found out some interesting facts about the number 17.

  • Seventeen is the 7th prime number.
  • 17 is the sum of the first four primes.

17 in the Bible:

  • The number 17 is used 13 times in the Bible: Genesis 7:11, 8:4, 37:2, 47:28; 1 Kings 14:21, 22:52; 2 Kings 13:1, 16:1; 1 Chronicles 24:15, 25:24; 2 Chronicles 12:13; Jeremiah 32:9; Judith 1:13. The word “seventeen” is used 17 times; the four additional references are: Judges 8:14; 1 Chronicles 7:11; Ezra 2:39; Nehemiah 7:42.
  • The 17th book is the shortest. Someone has spent 17 years looking for the exact middle point of the Bible. It is the psalm 117 which is the shortest. The longest one is the psalm 119 (divisible by 17).
  • 2² + 3² + 5² + 7² + 11² + 13² + 17² = 666 (number of the Beast).
  • The Flood started on the 17th. Noah’s Ark landed on the Mount Ararat (alt. 17,000 feet) on the 17th.

Weird 17:

  • The Italians fear the 17’s, because 17 is written XVII in Roman numerals, which is the anagram of VIXI, which means “I lived”, i.e. “I am dead”. In Italy, buildings do not have a 17th floor, hotels do not have a room 17, and Alitalia planes do not have a seat 17 [neither do Air Inter planes and British Airways Concordes]. When Renault marketed its R17 and wanted to export it to Italy, it had to be renamed “Renault 177”. Napoleon Bonaparte, who was more Italian than French in his education, refused to give the signal for his coup on “vendredi 17 brumaire” and postponed it until the following day.


The End of an Era

It’s sad when you have to say goodbye to someone. When you won’t see them for a long time, maybe not ever again. It’s sad to wave goodbye to those you may have only talked to for a little while, maybe even just the odd “Hey” or “Bye”.

For Christians, there will never be a final goodbye. Yes, they’re not here now, we can’t speak to them like we used to, we can’t hold them in our arms like we used to, we can’t laugh or cry with them like we used. It will never be, “Like it used to be”.

For we know that if our earthly house of this tabernacle were dissolved, we have a building of God, an house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed upon with our house which is from heaven: if so be that being clothed we shall not be found naked. For we that are in this tabernacle do groan, being burdened: not for that we would be unclothed, but clothed upon, that mortality might be swallowed up of life. Now he that hath wrought us for the selfsame thing is God, who also hath given unto us the earnest of the Spirit. Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord: (for we walk by faith, not by sight:) we are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord. (2 Corinthians 5:1-8)

If you’re going through a hard time. God is there, God knows your pain. He too lost a Son in the worst of circumstances.

I wrote a song yesterday called “Sweet Surrender”. I feel as if the Lord is preparing me for something but I don’t know what it is and I’m fearfull – yet at the same time, joyfull, because I know that whatever the future may hold, it’s safe in His almighty hands.

Sweet Surrender
I’ve been waiting for this winding road to end
I’ve been waiting for this load to be lifted from my head.
I don’t know, where I’m going. Don’t know where to begin.
All I know is that Your Word says I should start believing.

I’ve been praying for this cloud to be lifted.
I’ve been praying for the sun to shine again in my life.
I’ve been scared, I’ve been scared of what the future may hold.
But I know my life is safe, is safe in Your hands.

My sweet surrender
Is coming from my heart.
My sweet surrender
Is flowing from my heart
Is flowing from my heart.

There are times when I feel alone.
There are places where I will not go.
But I know you are with me, wherever I am.
Where there’s one set of footprints, you’ve carred me through.


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